If you’ve been following the Pictorialization Project at all, you may recall that I shared this image last week.
However, I started a charcoal version and just completed it. I feel like this charcoal rendition is better than the one I did last week of the lake.
I am also working on a painting, but I dare you to guess the inspiration photo.
I have some news to share regarding my photography…
I did not take the job.
What? What’s this in reference to?
Well, late last week, I had sent a query letter to a local photography company. I didn’t expect much; I was marketing myself.
Within 24 hours, I had a response and was on the phone interviewing this company. Who knew?
I thought it was reasonable to expect that I should have the top-notch program for photographers and artists alike: Photoshop. They wanted me to buy it ASAP. I use the free version: GIMP. I have been quite happy with it.
However, I was immediately worried about this freelance position. I had embarked on the Picto Project and I’m doing everything I love: writing, painting, and photographing.
I began to worry that I wouldn’t have time to complete this project between teaching and my other obligations.
For a time I set those reservations aside and really entertained the idea of working for this company.
I received another email from this them saying that I needed to get medical checkups, drug tests, waivers and I was to keep the company apprised of my progress and I would not be allowed to work until I had fulfilled all the requirements. And they were to be at my expense.
There were SEVEN attachments to this email.
Oh, and let’s not forget a two-day unpaid training – and they’d buy me lunch.
All these red flags went up. I’m thinking, first of all, this is a contractor position and I’m having to foot the bill for a lot of stuff. I’m sure they’ll find ready and willing photographers to do this, but I for one will not. What if I go through all this expense and don’t like it?
And there was something else.
Actually, I considered it a sign.
There’s this great blog called Brain Pickings. I read this post about doing what you love.
I am doing what I love! Right now.
Between blogging, writing, painting, photography and otherwise being creative, this is the life I want to live. Right here. Right now.
The whole reason I left full-time employment and gave up the security of health insurance and a regular paycheck is because I HAVE to do what I love.
I gave up the good to go for the great.
And I believe in what I’m doing.
However, working for someone else – again – will only set me back. I do teach part time. I don’t want anything else to get in the way of my goals.
The photography gig would have done that.
No, I’m sure as hell not getting rich quick. But I have freedom.
It’s scary and exhilarating all at once.
It’s precarious at best, but infinitely fulfilling.
The stress of not having a steady income is overwhelming sometimes. But it’s also a shot of adrenaline. I get a thrill knowing that if I plug away and work hard enough, I will make a difference.
With my photography.
With my writing.
With my art.
And I will not quit until I have. So, nice of you to take an interest, Photography Company, but I am on another path.