Picto Project Week 2 | Winter Leaves in Charcoal | Declining a Photography Job

winter leaves inspirations

If you’ve been following the Pictorialization Project at all, you may recall that I shared this image last week.

However, I started a charcoal version and just completed it.  I feel like this charcoal rendition is better than the one I did last week of the lake.

winter leaves charcoal drawing

I am also working on a painting, but I dare you to guess the inspiration photo.

I have some news to share regarding my photography…

I did not take the job.

What?  What’s this in reference to?

Well, late last week, I had sent a query letter to a local photography company.  I didn’t expect much; I was marketing myself.

Within 24 hours, I had a response and was on the phone interviewing this company.  Who knew?

I thought it was reasonable to expect that I should have the top-notch program for photographers and artists alike: Photoshop.  They wanted me to buy it ASAP.  I use the free version: GIMP.  I have been quite happy with it.

However, I was immediately worried about this freelance position.  I had embarked on the Picto Project and I’m doing everything I love: writing, painting, and photographing.

I began to worry that I wouldn’t have time to complete this project between teaching and my other obligations.

For a time I set those reservations aside and really entertained the idea of working for this company.

I received another email from this them saying that I needed to get medical checkups, drug tests, waivers and I was to keep the company apprised of my progress and I would not be allowed to work until I had fulfilled all the requirements.  And they were to be at my expense.

There were SEVEN attachments to this email.

Oh, and let’s not forget a two-day unpaid training – and they’d buy me lunch.

All these red flags went up.  I’m thinking, first of all, this is a contractor position and I’m having to foot the bill for a lot of stuff.  I’m sure they’ll find ready and willing photographers to do this, but I for one will not.  What if I go through all this expense and don’t like it?  

And there was something else.

Actually, I considered it a sign.  


There’s this great blog called Brain Pickings.  I read this post about doing what you love.

I am doing what I love!  Right now.

Between blogging, writing, painting, photography and otherwise being creative, this is the life I want to live.  Right here.  Right now.

The whole reason I left full-time employment and gave up the security of health insurance and a regular paycheck is because I HAVE to do what I love.

I gave up the good to go for the great.

And I believe in what I’m doing.

However, working for someone else – again – will only set me back.  I do teach part time.  I don’t want anything else to get in the way of my goals.

The photography gig would have done that.

No, I’m sure as hell not getting rich quick.  But I have freedom.

It’s scary and exhilarating all at once.

It’s precarious at best, but infinitely fulfilling.

The stress of not having a steady income is overwhelming sometimes.  But it’s also a shot of adrenaline.  I get a thrill knowing that if I plug away and work hard enough, I will make a difference.

With my photography.

With my writing.

With my art.

And I will not quit until I have.  So, nice of you to take an interest, Photography Company, but I am on another path.

14 thoughts on “Picto Project Week 2 | Winter Leaves in Charcoal | Declining a Photography Job

  1. Oh I totally believe in signs and that everything does happen for a reason. That said I think you just know and going with your gut on this one is definitely something that is most important. Besides, you are truly destined for greatness and I, for one, can’t wait to be there to say I knew you when!! 🙂


  2. Seriously…drug test and other tests…lol

    Who would know that telecommute jobs demand such kinda tests. You did the right thing, Cyndi.

    Love the charcoal pix. I have also dreamt to draw like this..


  3. I am happy for you… it seemed like something that would have been great too do, but they should have done all the stuff for you on their bill. That would have sent up a red flag for me as well. Good luck and keep doing what you are doing!


  4. totally agree with most (of the above), go with your gut as far as whether this is a good job to take.

    Staying with your passion will more than compensate for the perceived value of security of emplyoment from someone else. What it seems you want (for your work, your art) is something that you will be creating in the world for yourself. (And there is something self-affirming to not only believe in yourself, but to say, ‘No thank you’ to a job that many others (with less confidence in themselves) would think they *had* to take.


  5. I think that you made the right choice. I find myself in the same position a lot lately. I feel like I should take a freelance writing position that will likely take up all of my extra time that I typically use for blogging.But I want to do what I love too! So thank you for sharing this. It helped clarify for things for me as well. 🙂


  6. Go you!! It’s strange how we get signs like that? I always look at things like this as though we’re being tested. Like someone is looking down and going, “So, Cyndi…just how much do you love what you’re doing? Let’s see….” (job offer pops up). You’re doing a fantastic job my friend…just keep going and pushing, you will get there, you’re already well on your way. Lately I’ve been feeling like I would love to have a paid job again, but this freedom I have, creative expression is PRICELESS!!! Thanks for reminding me of that 🙂 ❤


  7. It’s good that you could pass on this particular job opportunity and I, like you would heard some serious alarms going off if meant with a company who was asking so much of me with so little in return initially. It pays to be initutive to oneself and to have the ability to see the writing on the wall, so-to-speak. Do you what you love and you’ll have few regrets with a whole lot of happiness. Nice job on the characoal leaves!


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